oh Lord im falling, take my life and make me whole again. oh Lord im crying, can you bring me home again. i need You to make me new. i need you to make me new.
another question i thought about this week that goes with my previous question is:
“how does God decide who goes to heaven, and who goes to hell?”
i think its unfair that certain people have their lives set to go to heaven, while others are destined to hell. yeah, i know that life is unfair, and if it were fair we would all go to hell for sure. but what is it about a person that decides their salvation? (to be honest, i actually dont have assurance in my own salvation)
what i dont understand is how some random guy could be saved and go to church every sunday while another guy gives everything he has to the poor but doesnt have a clue who Jesus is? i would think that God would be more pleased in the giver if he would give in Jesus’ name. i also sometimes wish i could transfer my little faith i have to a non-believer who is capable of better glorifying God.
i know i probably have alot of things wrong but, im sure i would understand God more if my first question were answered (PLEASE HELP ME!)
…i have so many questions.
alot of times i wonder why God only gave us one way to eternity, but why should He have ever given us one way in the first place?
what a gracious God…
i’ve been thinking about this for a long long time in my head but never got anything from it.
i’ve always known that everything happens for a reason and because it is God’s will. i also know that God makes everything work for my good (romans 8:28?). but when i think about sin, this whole idea confuses me, maybe im just stupid.
if when i sin, it breaks God’s heart, why does He allow me to sin at all? when satan tempts me to sin, why does God allow it when he knows that i am fighting the temptations? and everytime i sin, God already knew from the begining of time that i was going to commit that sin. if i know that everything that happens is God’s will, then what is the point of fighting sin at all when i already know that God’s plan will go perfectly whether i fall into the temptations or not? and when i think of doing good like evangelizing, whats the point of trying if i know that by evangelizing or not evangelizing, it will result in God’s will being done? i know we have freedom because Jesus died for our sins so we wont be punished by God for our sins, but doesnt living “freely” and living knowing that God’s will will be done contradict each other? it seems like we’re all robots then, God’s will being done even when i disobey my parents and when i hurt people..
i dont know. maybe i have it all wrong.
not sure if anyone will read this but…someone help me.
this is my first blog…kind of weird.
when you’re blogging, who are you supposed to “blog” to?
(why are all these lines skipping?)
i dont know what to say, so im gonna just talk about my day.
today in web publishing, i was looking for my homework to turn in but i couldnt find it any where in my book bag.
i looked at the clock and saw that i had about two minutes left until the first bell. i ran down to the first floor to my locker but i still didnt find it. hopefully i can make it up.
physical science: same. but my lab partner has missed almost five days and she usually does all the work in the lab so the past few days ive had to do them myself. we also did a lab involving sugar cubes. at the end of class people were stealing them from the teacher, i only took the unused one i had for my lab. but at the end of class, i was the last student in the class because i had to clean up the lab station because no one else would and while i was leaving, my teacher asked if i wanted a sugar cube (she probably new people stole most of them already)
i hope you feel better shannon! hope to see you tomorrow.(she probably wont even read this)
lunch: not too bad. i eat in the gym with my friends. there was a special ed student in the middle of the gym floor dancing (not trying to be funny) and people started laughing at him. it made me wonder how my life would be if i had some kind of dissability, my life would be miserable.
english: pretty much the same. i sit in the back of the class with some old and new friends. i went to sleep like any other time in english. (probably explains why i have a B in english)
science seminar: nothing new.
orchestra: nothing new.
after coming home i helped (or at least tried to) my brother by “modeling” and taking a picture of his shadow. i got bored so i played guitar. (everytime i tell someone i play guitar i feel like a poser, i cant even play well and i dont want anyone to falsely think that i can.) but i wish i were good at singing.
went to tae-kwon-do. came back, same routine.
finished homework. listening to music(an instrumental band “toe” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_1WPYvkj73Q&feature=related). and this blog thing.
my next blogs probably wont be this long. whats the point if probably no one will ever read these? hahah
goodnight.
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