blog 2

i’ve been thinking about this for a long long time in my head but never got anything from it.

i’ve always known that everything happens for a reason and because it is God’s will. i also know that God makes everything work for my good (romans 8:28?). but when i think about sin, this whole idea confuses me, maybe im just stupid.

if when i sin, it breaks God’s heart, why does He allow me to sin at all? when satan tempts me to sin, why does God allow it when he knows that i am fighting the temptations? and everytime i sin, God already knew from the begining of time that i was going to commit that sin. if i know that everything that happens is God’s will, then what is the point of fighting sin at all when i already know that God’s plan will go perfectly whether i fall into the temptations or not? and when i think of doing good like evangelizing, whats the point of trying if i know that by evangelizing or not evangelizing, it will result in God’s will being done? i know we have freedom because Jesus died for our sins so we wont be punished by God for our sins, but doesnt living “freely” and living knowing that God’s will will be done contradict each other? it seems like we’re all robots then, God’s will being done even when i disobey my parents and when i hurt people..

i dont know. maybe i have it all wrong.

not sure if anyone will read this but…someone help me.